As i sit here at work staring at my computer screen I look right through it and keep looking back to you being beautiful getting your self ready to have a great time on the town with me. I look at my phone to texts this morning that describe to me about your breakfast in bed and i have this feeling in my gut that even though you and me are getting closer and closer that you and me are falling farther apart with every new day that we enter into.

I get to see you tonight or so you say to go out just you and me once again but I know hes laying next to you and you will put me on the back burner without a second thought if he hints at the fact that he wants you to.  I’m worried that you and me will diminish into thin air once you and him figure out what is going on between you two no matter how much you tell me it wont change. I hope to see you soon. My thoughts are not in this hell I sit in everyday but with you laying in bed with another man right now.

- “You Made Me Find My Heart In An Otherwise Cold Body.”

I Sit here thinking about you. My feelings and emotions are a wreck right now. I get to see you tonight but for how long. You will be gone in a time measurable by hours for months and months and my heart sinks. I’m such in lust (as you call it) right now with you it is ridiculous. You are the first girl in quite a while i would even consider a little bit to spend considerable time in my hectic life with. You keep saying that your more trouble than your worth and I would be more than happy to enjoy the so called trouble to be with you. I have heard that to kiss you would be like kissing the world and yet i long to feel your luscious lips pressed up against mine.

You have been so honest about everyone to me that you have been with in the short time that we have known each other and with every conversation about my friend or yours I feel more and more jealousy that its not me were talking about and I’m hurt a little more each time to what will probably end in a breakdown. I have become so attached to you in these few short weeks and i keep feeling pain when I’m around you but dont want to express it for the feeling I may lose you forever. I have such a good time when it’s just us but then you go out and do stupid thing after stupid thing and it hurts not just you but me as well. I have never questioned why I like you and why I want to be with you but I have this feeling I need to start as much as I don’t want to.

This weekend without you was really hard with you all the way across the country. I actually missed you alot even though we talked into the wee hours of the morning and texted the whole time. I don’t even want to think how hard it’s gonna be when you are actually gone for more than just a couple days.

So let me tell you a little story about me

This is the type of women i normally end up with…

Then i end up doing this…..

I finally found a woman to do what is shown below and i feel it slipping through my fingers…..

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{update} .. Yeah definitely slipped through.